Phimpha here. I have
been busy but quiet. In the quiet time I have been praying and waiting for God to
move on the Restoration Center. We now are using the funds we have to pay for
the personal loan that was graciously given to us by friends in order for us to
complete the land purchase. The salary from my work all goes to the needy and
poor in the Love and Care Project ministry. But the restoration Center needs to
move forward also. As I was lying on my bed praying with tears asking God what
to do He told me to just step out in faith. He said: “Go out onto the land and
do something so I can see you there. So I took with me 3 widowed ladies that
will live with us there and we went out to dig holes to put up a fence across
the front of the property. I had a small backhoe come and dig holes so we could
plant some trees on the bare land. We planted some coconut trees to start with.
I called the electric company and asked them to come out to see where to run
power into the land. I also talked with a draftsman about the plans God had
showed me for a small house. I currently have no place in that area to call
home. I live from place to place and out of my truck a lot. The widows and I
are waiting for a place to live. Please pray with us as you have been blessed
by God already.
Please pray and support the kingdom of our Father
From Phimpha’s heart.
Phimpha just told me about this the other day, even though she had been out
working on the land as she could 3 weeks before. She did not tell me what God
had said because honestly, she was afraid I would discourage her. Well
unbeknown to her at about the same time God had convicted me that I needed to
get out on the land and do what I could. Just start digging a footing and fill
it with cement. Just do something as I could. I was thinking to cut some trees
for poles and put up a roof to live under while we build. No power, no running
water just do something. But I didn’t tell her and didn’t go out. I need to
learn better. So God kept convicting her she needed to speak to me about what
she was doing and just 2 days ago she told me. I was glad to hear we had the
same thing at the same time. Not glad that I didn’t go out.
Some days I
let it get to me. I need to praise God in all times. He is good to me and has
more love for me than I can possibly imagine. He sent His Son to take the pain
and beatings for my shortcomings in life. My open sin my hidden sins. He knows
and see’s all and no matter what. God alone is always worthy of praise. He sees
the suffering children and wonders why we do not help. He has given us the
earth. It is ours to share. It is not His fault the children suffer, it is
mine. I need to do more to love more to walk more like Jesus in His power and
bring in the lost. It is why we are on the earth.
God has given us all power. He is in us
and He has full power and is willing to work through us. All we need to do is
to humble ourselves and allow Him to use us. He will do the work if we can just
let go of ourselves and live for Him alone. I thought I was living for Him but
the more He shows me the more I see how far I have yet to go. But I will go and
I will be there and I will allow Him to use me. This life is so short and not
ours and no matter what happens to us on this earth it is meaningless if we do
not allow Him to use us.
I was in bed but Phimpha messaged me asking me to send out for
help. It’s the last thing I wanted to do tonight. I hate this part and told
myself I wouldn’t do it anymore but… I wish I could explain what it’s like to
have people who depend on you for food and necessities call you over and over
asking for help, but you have nothing to give. She gets that a lot. She told me
she doesn’t want to see the suffering anymore. She told the people we support
in Cambodia that last month was the last time we could help them but they
called again a couple days ago begging for help. How to do? Yes they have the
same God but they don’t have the same faith. We sent them all we had now we
have nothing too. Then the home up north has been calling. They need food and
such for the 60 kids they care for. Then there is an old lady that needs a bed
and more adult diapers. She is going downhill but we would still like to get
her into a bed. She sent me the picture. It got me up to write. It never ends
when you work with the poor.
I am sure many of you think you could do a better job of taking
care of the ministry here. Well come and show us how to make it work. Sorry I
am a bit frustrated with God. If you have His attention tell Him we could use a
little help for the people He keeps sending to us.
I don’t know what else to say. Its midnight, I am going back to
bed and pray more.